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Eduard's Notes:
This is a song about people who cannot control their addiction to (sex/abuse/drugs/alcohol/fill-in-the-blank) and spiral to destruction, blaming everyone else but themselves.
Disclaimer: This is NOT about me, so don't get anxious! I am sure you have met some people who cannot seem to (or won't) escape from this destructive path they're on. I have known a number of them in my lifetime, one who was very close to me, and another who didn't make it out alive. This song is my attempt to capture the helplessness "in the first person." It was a difficult stretch for me to try to do well, since I am not an actor, nor a lyricist, nor a singer... and I'm usually upbeat, not dark and brooding.
So, here's my first attempt at singing into a microphone and sharing the result. If I pulled this off well, it will make you uncomfortable, due to the subject matter. If I did not pull it off, it will make you uncomfortable because I failed to get the message across persuasively. Either way, as always, I'm very interested in any comments you have. Please offer any positive and negative critiques about the subject matter, techniques, timing, singing, lyrics, mixing, etc... I welcome your thoughts!
History: The amazingly talented BorisLuxx posted an intrumental track called Toxicity... it grabbed my attention right away, and started whispering lyrics into my ear. The music rhythm suggested a new title, and I came up with "Toxic Desire", and the lyrics began to write themselves. I decided to pluck up my courage to try to sing them myself. My wife, after her initial anxiety of listening to me "drifting to the dark (wave) side", helped immensely with tweaks to my initial lyrics, and by coaching me on singing. Maurice (Moviz) suggested I drink some Bacardi prior to singing, but since I didn't have any around, I resorted to DragonSauce, which worked just as well... thanks Maurice, *hic!* Roxylee, after I let her peek at an early draft, asked to become the "siren", and fill the empty spaces with her harmonies and sultry ethereal subconscious beckoning... and this 3-way snowball-collaboration was born. After some drafts and suggested changes, she sent me her GarageBand file, and I manually merged her tracks into my GarageBand file and chopped, tweaked, requested changes, EQ'ed, and mixed/blended until I felt the song conveyed its desperate message. I eventually chopped and removed a bunch of Roxylee's singing, and hope that a future collaboration with less "busy" music will give her more space to share her remarkable singing with me. Thank you so much Boris and Roxylee for helping me create this "Cautionary Tale."
Artwork: A drawing I made to accompany a poem I wrote when I was 19... it seemed to fit here, so many years later.
Roxylee's Notes: When Drak said he was going to finally SING and needed someone to do background siren-y voices and play the other part, how could I not say "Ooh, pick me, pick me?" It's a far cry from our usual fare, but I've learned to "think outside the box" here in MacJams land. Not to worry, though; I'm still me - I haven't turned into a femme fatal or worse. My hope is that anyone who hears this and is stuck in an abusive relationship, addicted to alcohol, drugs, or anything that robs life of peace and vitality, will see how destructive it is, and start on the road to recovery. And if this song makes you want addictions, the prayer lines are open. :-)
This is a song about people who cannot control their addiction to (sex/abuse/drugs/alcohol/fill-in-the-blank) and spiral to destruction, blaming everyone else but themselves.
Disclaimer: This is NOT about me, so don't get anxious! I am sure you have met some people who cannot seem to (or won't) escape from this destructive path they're on. I have known a number of them in my lifetime, one who was very close to me, and another who didn't make it out alive. This song is my attempt to capture the helplessness "in the first person." It was a difficult stretch for me to try to do well, since I am not an actor, nor a lyricist, nor a singer... and I'm usually upbeat, not dark and brooding.
So, here's my first attempt at singing into a microphone and sharing the result. If I pulled this off well, it will make you uncomfortable, due to the subject matter. If I did not pull it off, it will make you uncomfortable because I failed to get the message across persuasively. Either way, as always, I'm very interested in any comments you have. Please offer any positive and negative critiques about the subject matter, techniques, timing, singing, lyrics, mixing, etc... I welcome your thoughts!
History: The amazingly talented BorisLuxx posted an intrumental track called Toxicity... it grabbed my attention right away, and started whispering lyrics into my ear. The music rhythm suggested a new title, and I came up with "Toxic Desire", and the lyrics began to write themselves. I decided to pluck up my courage to try to sing them myself. My wife, after her initial anxiety of listening to me "drifting to the dark (wave) side", helped immensely with tweaks to my initial lyrics, and by coaching me on singing. Maurice (Moviz) suggested I drink some Bacardi prior to singing, but since I didn't have any around, I resorted to DragonSauce, which worked just as well... thanks Maurice, *hic!* Roxylee, after I let her peek at an early draft, asked to become the "siren", and fill the empty spaces with her harmonies and sultry ethereal subconscious beckoning... and this 3-way snowball-collaboration was born. After some drafts and suggested changes, she sent me her GarageBand file, and I manually merged her tracks into my GarageBand file and chopped, tweaked, requested changes, EQ'ed, and mixed/blended until I felt the song conveyed its desperate message. I eventually chopped and removed a bunch of Roxylee's singing, and hope that a future collaboration with less "busy" music will give her more space to share her remarkable singing with me. Thank you so much Boris and Roxylee for helping me create this "Cautionary Tale."
Artwork: A drawing I made to accompany a poem I wrote when I was 19... it seemed to fit here, so many years later.
Roxylee's Notes: When Drak said he was going to finally SING and needed someone to do background siren-y voices and play the other part, how could I not say "Ooh, pick me, pick me?" It's a far cry from our usual fare, but I've learned to "think outside the box" here in MacJams land. Not to worry, though; I'm still me - I haven't turned into a femme fatal or worse. My hope is that anyone who hears this and is stuck in an abusive relationship, addicted to alcohol, drugs, or anything that robs life of peace and vitality, will see how destructive it is, and start on the road to recovery. And if this song makes you want addictions, the prayer lines are open. :-)
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Lyrics
Toxic Desire
Part 1:
Your smell, Your taste
It clouds my thought
The poison taints
You're all I've got
I love your taste (..You)
Go down so smooth
I hate myself
As morning looms
You take from me
all day, all night
My job, my friends
I cannot fight
You prey on me
And know I'm weak
You lie to me
I cannot speak
Chorus:
Toxic Desire
Nowhere to go...
We both get lost
within our greed
Toxic Desire
What's wrong with me
There's nothing left
No Sanity
Your smell, Your taste
It clouds my thought
The poison taints (but)
You're all I've got
Part 2:
I love your taste
You blur my pain
I know I'll hate
myself again
You take from me
all night, all day
My life, my self
All drained away
You prey on me
And know I'm weak
You lie to me
(I cannot speak)
Copyright 2008 Eduard Schwan Poetry, All Rights Reserved
Roxylee's parts:
Desire x2
We're alone now, no one can see us
-
Thoughts of me obsess you now
I'm in every waking moment, in every dream
Come closer... closer!
-
No, I enhance
I'll make you strong
It's normal to need
come closer
(maniacal laughter)
I always win
..so very well
You know you can't live without me
Just one taste, and you're mine
-
Thoughts of me obsess you now
I'm in every waking moment, in every dream
Come closer... closer!
-
Yes, now I've got you
I'll make you strong
Shhhh....
Part 1:
Your smell, Your taste
It clouds my thought
The poison taints
You're all I've got
I love your taste (..You)
Go down so smooth
I hate myself
As morning looms
You take from me
all day, all night
My job, my friends
I cannot fight
You prey on me
And know I'm weak
You lie to me
I cannot speak
Chorus:
Toxic Desire
Nowhere to go...
We both get lost
within our greed
Toxic Desire
What's wrong with me
There's nothing left
No Sanity
Your smell, Your taste
It clouds my thought
The poison taints (but)
You're all I've got
Part 2:
I love your taste
You blur my pain
I know I'll hate
myself again
You take from me
all night, all day
My life, my self
All drained away
You prey on me
And know I'm weak
You lie to me
(I cannot speak)
Copyright 2008 Eduard Schwan Poetry, All Rights Reserved
Roxylee's parts:
Desire x2
We're alone now, no one can see us
-
Thoughts of me obsess you now
I'm in every waking moment, in every dream
Come closer... closer!
-
No, I enhance
I'll make you strong
It's normal to need
come closer
(maniacal laughter)
I always win
..so very well
You know you can't live without me
Just one taste, and you're mine
-
Thoughts of me obsess you now
I'm in every waking moment, in every dream
Come closer... closer!
-
Yes, now I've got you
I'll make you strong
Shhhh....
Roxylee
Thank you, Eduard, for letting me take part in your debut singing post. J You played the part of the snared man chillingly well. This one was out of character for us, and it was fun to be an actress for the part of the siren voiced temptress. Your excellent attention to detail and mixing skills really show. I hope that this song will make people think, and it will serve as a warning to those who are in any danger of being addicted to anything.