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This is a song I wrote in 1976. When I was playing with our band I could not come up with a suitable orchestration for it, so it remained a song I sang privately just to remember and grieve.

In 1976 I met a girl and fell instantly in love. We spent much of the first part of the year hanging out together, doing things. The only problem was that she didn't fall in love in the least. She wanted my company but not my love.

Being my first real love it was "all in" for me and when I realized that she wasn't even close to "all in" it hurt very much. She became uncomfortable and slowly stopped having anything to do with me.

Many of us have been there. That entire summer everything I did reminded me of this girl, the things we did, and the pain that followed was often difficult to take.

About the song:

There are four guitar tracks on this. Three of them are finger picked. Because I don't have a 12 string two of the tracks are picked with the guitar detuned to resemble the alternate string on a 12 string. These are not MIDI tracks. These are real guitar painstakingly played to be as tight as possible with the original track. If you listen carefully you can hear a few slight misses.

There are two vocal tracks. The primary vocal track is backed on the choruses: "And these things...". The backing track is sung purposefully to sound "anguished" or dissident.

The bass is entered with the pencil and the drums are from Drums on Demand.

If anyone is interested in trying a better vocal for this I'd be glad to have some help. My range is just so terrible. I'm also open to sound and mix suggestions.

Thanks in advance!
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Lyrics
Memory - MRH 1976

Have you ever had a memory
so good that hurt
And every time to tried to dry your tears
you rubbed in more dirt

And those things you wanted to do
That will never be done
while at the time
They seemed like so much fun.

And every little tiny thing you do
brings this memory back to you
And you try so hard to forget
but its very hard to do

And those things you wanted to do
That will never be done
while at the time
They seemed like so much fun.
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Hits: 1388
Comments: 36
Fans: 25
Plays: 150
Downloads: 68
Votes: 11
Uploaded: Aug 07, 2008 - 01:40:34 PM
Last Updated: Aug 07, 2008 - 01:40:34 PM Last Played: Nov 04, 2009 - 09:22:28 PM
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Comments
said 476 days ago (August 7th, 2008)
Memory
Aww never mind Mark you still got me :) I can hear you sound a bit gutted on this one too . It's understandable though.
Guitar's sound good.

Peace Dee.
MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Thanks so much Dee!
I thought you were taken! Wow... how cool!

Thanks for the listen and your time.
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Vic Holman said 476 days ago (August 7th, 2008)
anquished
a bit of unrequited love. been there, done that.
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Hi Vic!
Thanks for coming by for the listen. I guess many of us have been there, done that!
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Relic67 said 476 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
I like!
I like songs like this that are pure emotion and very honest sounding. the plaintive sounding guitar chords go perfectly.
I would have liked to hear the drums a little earlier in the tune, but that's just me, I like drums!
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Thanks Mr Relic!
Well I wanted the first part to sound anguished... I think drums are upbeat so the idea was to anguish then go upbeat near the end. But thanks for listening!
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Skean said 476 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
Nice rework
"1976" wows you put up songs who brings cool memories back in to my mind... Good mix here my friend.
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Thanks Kenta!
Always nice to hear that the mix sounds good!
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magnatone said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
Memory
unrequited love - HATE it when that happens! What a sweet and heartfelt song Mark!
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Thanks Karen!
However someone as sweet and wonderful as yourself... how could this have ever happened to you!? :-)
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Outtaorbit said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
love and pain
even if it works..... it all becomes memories of love and pain, as time passes.
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Hi Mr Orbit!
Ya you are right. Pain and memories!

Thanks for coming on in to listen!
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davisamerica said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
hullo mark....
i love this my friend .. is so beautifully fragile ... the vocals just enhance that and i don't think anyone could do it better. love the floating lead... and drums kick in nicely ... mark this is just a truly honest tune and you should be proud ... i am downloading!
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Jack...
You are so kind. I'm really touched that you liked this so well. Thanks so much for the words of support.


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Char said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
Ever had a memory? Yes.
It takes years to dull pain.
For some pain, there will never be enough years.
It takes force of your will.
For life to go on, you have to forgive
the remembrance.
Honest lyric and perfectly suitable vocal. Thanks for sharing. You touched me.

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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Char
I'm so glad this touched you. That means a lot. For a song to reach out and make a mark is a special thing.

Many of us have been there and yes time is the only solution along with a force of will.

Thanks so much for the listen and the words of support.
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Doadars Uncle said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
Yeah
I beat myself for years on this topic!

I like the presentation, here, gentle vocals, soft instrumentation.

I think the vocal is very heartfelt and appropriate. Range doesn't matter.
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Uncle!
Thanks so much for the listen.

I'm thankful you found the song moving. I don't like the sound of my own voice much... I think this is one case where I probably beat myself up too much.

Thanks again for the support.
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said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
beautful
calmy song, good effects with the voice! very nice tune
MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Mr. Eckleiste!
Thank you so much for coming in to listen! I'm glad you enjoyed the tune.
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guitapick said 475 days ago (August 8th, 2008)
Hi Mark
I stopped reading the description at:

"About the song..."

...because I know/knew all too well about the song.

Funny how even the tough memories can be good just 'cuz they're memories, all the same...

Thanks
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Hi Mr. Pick!
Thanks so much... Yes the tough ones can be good. Thanks for listening and I appreciate the comments.
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tokai said 474 days ago (August 9th, 2008)
yes
i have had memory's like this and you have put that feeling into music. Excellent melodic journey
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Thank you
so much Tokai!

I'm really happy that you enjoyed the song and it took you on a journey.
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Feter said 474 days ago (August 9th, 2008)
Memory
this is evry much thoughtfull ..what a passionate
and deep song you are singing ...complex issues
as D Crosby brought sometime ..very touched with the
story ...and the guitar work ...what a touch thnx
alot for sharin !!!!
MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Thank you
Mr. Feter. I'm glad you enjoyed it.
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woofer3 said 474 days ago (August 10th, 2008)
Your story has -
touched my heart and as you say we've all probably been there at some time or other. The piece reflects your feelings and is really too personal for anyone to trespass upon. Have you ever noticed that these relationships always seem to take place in the summer as well.
Really enjoyed this song Marc, if enjoy is the right word to use, I'm sure you know what I mean. - very special, your voice sounds great as well, just right.

John. - definately a favourite and a download, best wishes to you.
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MarkHolbrook said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Hi John
Thank you so much for listening and your kind comments. Yes these things do tend to happen in summer it seems. Strange.

Thanks again for your support.
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gail60 said 473 days ago (August 10th, 2008)
heartache....
whoa...been there and done that! This is such a heartfelt song my friend. Thanks for sharing it with all of us. You are so good about expressing your feelings and thoughts through song. Always enjoy your talents! Way to go Mark!
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Gail
you are so sweet... how could anyone have done this to you!? You would be a serious catch I think for anyone! I'm glad though you could identify with the song.

Thanks again for all your kind words and comments!
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Roxylee said 472 days ago (August 11th, 2008)
Yup, I can relate
and it runs deep. Thank you for sharing this heartfelt and personal song with us.
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Roxy
Thank you so much for dropping in to listen. I'm glad you enjoyed the song. It was as you say very personal and for years I played it just for myself.
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said 472 days ago (August 11th, 2008)
...have been there,
but you know what's intriguing to me about this song, in all its expression of sorrow, is the break to rocking at 3:05 -> like carrying on, life moves on, etc. I like that part about it....

. - Harold
MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Harold...
Thanks so much. It's funny I think I considered that break to the rock to be just that, breaking away, moving on but I never really quite put it in those terms. Thanks for helping me clarify this after all these years!
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SmokeyVW said 472 days ago (August 11th, 2008)
tempus fugit
ah yes, time. a favorite topic.

nicely done!

thanks
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Thanks so much
Smokey! I'm glad you came in for a listen!
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caroline said 472 days ago (August 11th, 2008)
lol - it would seem that so many of us
can identify with these lyrics and the entire feel of this song - me?? it seems like yesterday!! damn!! it was yesterday!!! :) - thank you for sharing and for doing it so well xox
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Caroline...
Like I said above I have a hard time thinking that someone as cool as you has been through this... But hey at least you can identify with the song. Thanks so much for the comment!
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Ibstrat said 471 days ago (August 12th, 2008)
Excellent
song- I really like the way you overdubbed those guitars.The delayed drum entrance was a great idea.Lots of feeling in this.
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Thank you Mr. Strat!
I'm glad you liked it. I always love to play with some new sounds and overdubbing the guitars and detuning them was a kick... Lots of work but a kick.

Thanks so much for the comment!
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elfdaughter said 470 days ago (August 13th, 2008)
Unrequited love
Yeah, I've been there as well. Still am there, actually. It's really hard, and this song struck even more of a chord in me because of that. Perfect - very plaintive and emotional... brought a lump to my throat. But when the drums kicked in, the sense of hope and life continuing on through all obstacles resounded through the entire song. There is a truth there - there is strength to be found through loss.

Blimey, listen to me... you would never guess I'm all but 23, would you?! I think having gone through these experiences at a young age ages you - in a good way. It makes you more mature and teaches you important lessons about life.
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Elfdaughter
I just can't understand how all you gorgeous sweet ladies are feeling this so deeply. I always thought this was more of a guy thing... to fall in love with a girl and have her want little to do with you... Alas it shows how much I know!

Well at 23 you have quite the set of experiences to build on! Thanks so much for coming in and listening!
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thoddi said 469 days ago (August 14th, 2008)
young love
Can stay with you for a while such experiences...

I'm impressed with your technique on getting the 12 string sound. Pretty original to do it that way:)

You've made a mood suited to the theme of the song. When the drums kick in, it kind of tells that it's time to move on...


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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Thoddi...
Thank you so much. I tried hard to get a different sound with the little equipment I have. It was fun to play with. Thanks for coming in to listen!
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said 469 days ago (August 14th, 2008)
Ouch...
The story of my youth...That is, until I let my hair grow out. Suddenly female attention became both constant and overwhelming. But hey, it was 1969!

Lovely tuneage Mark. I REALLY like when the change-up occurs. You've got just the right tone on those lead licks. BRAVO!

Be well!
MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Mr. Wark
Thanks so much. I find it odd how so many people identify with this. Perhaps I'm just numb... I always saw happiness around me and not the pain.

Long hair did seem to get the girls it seemed in 1970.
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kassia said 468 days ago (August 15th, 2008)
Memory
Your voice is perfect for this song. I can hear all the emotion this piece deserves. It's a beautiful, bittersweet song. I like the simple accompaniment as well, soft guitar sounds. At 3:00 when the e-guitar and drums come in was a jolt to my ear. Lots of emotion in those instruments - but my ear wanted to hear some sweet piano playing there. Which I know you are very talented at! Very nice tune, Mark, and you did a wonderful job on the performance. Thank you for sharing this with us!
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
A jolt to the ear?
Sorry about that Shay... I guess I had to try and get you back for ruining my ear drums in Determination (@2:20 Mark went deaf in both ears)... Man that went big and loud at that point! But I LOVED it!

Thanks so much for your comments. The song Memory is played almost EXACTLY as I composed it back in 1976 or so. Nothing changed. The move to the faster piece with drums I think was a subconscious way of "moving on" as so many here have pointed out. I never considered it until I read the comments... but I think that is entirely what I meant.

Shay your comments are always so welcome. Thanks so much for dropping in.
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timothy devine said 462 days ago (August 21st, 2008)
Hi Mark
At least you had a bit of time with your love, my youthful love never even knew i existed. I can still feel the twang of pain, resurrected by your sweet vocal and great guitar playing
very very touching song
cool production
love it
tm
you got me diggin back to some old songs this morning now
nice
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MarkHolbrook said 457 days ago (August 26th, 2008)
Mr. Devine...
I'm not sure which is worse... a love that doesn't know you exist, or one where you get to build something and then watch it be torn down in one giant sweep.

Either way I think they are painful and they take their toll on us. I don't think these people know often what they have done and some don't even mean to do it. It just happens.

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ElPeruano said 456 days ago (August 28th, 2008)
beautiful
this is really beautiful. everything about it. wow. faved.
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MarkHolbrook said 438 days ago (September 14th, 2008)
Sir ElPeruano
Thank you so much for listening, faving and the like.
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Einarus said 454 days ago (August 29th, 2008)
Touching
Heartfelt lyrics and I love the chord progression in the first half.

Very moving, indeed.

-Einar S.
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MarkHolbrook said 438 days ago (September 14th, 2008)
Einarus
Thank you so much. Coming from a master composer like yourself this is wonderful. Thank you for listening.
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lavalamp said 452 days ago (August 31st, 2008)
Oh Mark
You must have posted this around my vacation. Sorry I missed it. But, better late than........

I really like the sound of the guitar.
Great lyrics.

If you want this song to sound stellar, you should get a female vocalist. There are many here who would work with you.

Very, very nice song, friend.

Dave
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MarkHolbrook said 438 days ago (September 14th, 2008)
Hi Dave
I totally agree... I need to find/employ a singer... female would take it to the limit for sure.

Maybe I will ask Gail if she would be willing to give this a whirl... I think she's about the only female singer here that would be interested in my stuff.

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VicDiesel said 441 days ago (September 11th, 2008)
The memory lingers on
Yeah, I have a couple of those memories yourself. It takes some attempts to find someone who is as much into you as you are into them. And somehow you never forget the other ones.

I like the multiple picking guitar tracks. In fact, when you bring in the bass and drum, the backing texture thins out. I would have kept the multiple parts going there. I like dense textures.

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MarkHolbrook said 438 days ago (September 14th, 2008)
Hello Mr VicDiesel!
Thanks so much for listening...

After you posted I went back and listened again and you are right. It does thin out... I'll have to think about how to add the texture back in. It changes to a different sound at that point. Maybe for a change up I can change the texture method. Good idea... I'll play around with it.


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lengold said 440 days ago (September 12th, 2008)
Mark - this is
such a gorgeous song and well performed and produced. Nice change up with the drums/electric.
{Sorry I'm so late to this).
Cheers
Len


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MarkHolbrook said 438 days ago (September 14th, 2008)
Hello Mr Gold
I'm just glad you came in for a listen! I don't care how late it is... next year would be fine too! :-)

I'm really glad you liked the song. It is truly a heart song and the story is very true. It's been bumping around on my guitar for close to 30 years!
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BossHook said 437 days ago (September 15th, 2008)
You sing
this song like it happened yesterday. The guitar finger picking is mysterious and alluring.
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MarkHolbrook said 437 days ago (September 15th, 2008)
John
Thank you sooo much! I really glad you took the time to listen... I liked the sound of the guitar myself. I'm glad it appealed to you. Thanks again for the listen and the comment!
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stevel said 433 days ago (September 19th, 2008)
nice track
I like the plaintive tone of this song...nice guitar sound you have there. The vocals kinda remind me of Kurt Wagner of Lambchop...one of my fave bands
All in alll...very nice indeed
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MarkHolbrook said 422 days ago (September 30th, 2008)
Hi Stevel
Thanks for the comments. After you mentioned it I went and listened to some Kurt and ya I think you are right...

Anyway thanks for the listen!
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timothy devine said 430 days ago (September 23rd, 2008)
Sad song say so much
I am back for more.
I always love the way a sad song tugs on the heart string

The guitar in this is just so cool
and the the soloing with the drums/
cool/way cool
I really dig the rhythm guitar stuff
nice and easy
cool
tm
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MarkHolbrook said 422 days ago (September 30th, 2008)
Mr Devine!
Thank you so much my friend! I'm really glad you enjoyed it. I too liked the break to drums and "moving on" as some here pointed out.
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Remark80 said 411 days ago (October 11th, 2008)
Love this one
This reminds me of early Genesis. "Carpet Crawlers" your vocal approach is similar to Peter Gabriel in the early years of Genesis. I think backing vocals and reverb/echo on the voice would have sounded pretty cool. Maybe bringing in the drums earlier with some keyboard/synth/strings to fill it out some more. The bass is lost in this mix. Great foundation for a great song. Thanks for sharing this one.


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The Infinites said 409 days ago (October 13th, 2008)
There's a saying that...
...unrequited love is the only TRUE love as it can never be spoiled because you can't get it to do that to it. Once the catch has been made; there's the potential for it to go downhill....so the upside is that it's a perfect love that you will always have, unspoiled.

That's that the theory bit out the way! Fine pickin' man! Lovely tune - has stood the test of time. Agree with Sean - early Genesis but also shades of America for me. Don't diss your voice. I think there's a pathos in there that suits the melancholy of your song. Thanks for sharing and giving an up front explanation of the background.

Jim
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maxruehl said 82 days ago (September 5th, 2009)
A
bittersweet memory of summers past. I had many summers like that, pining over unrequited loves and often, on my part, unexpressed feelings. I listened to this track a couple of times before commenting and it really grew on me. I like the change of pace toward the middle of the piece. Nice work, bud.:
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