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I lived in NYC during 9/11 and wrote this song there. I played it at open mics for a couple years, and for some reason I just recorded it for the first time.

Everyone who was there, will tell you they will never forget that day, and I am no different. It is burned into my memory forever and feels now like a dream.

I walked home across the Brooklyn Bridge with thousands of people just after the second tower fell. I remember the man in front of me had a backpack on and there was this little pile of rubble and ash on the top of the backpack, behind his head. It’s those little images you never forget.

When I got back to my house, I had to walk my dog, so I took her to Prospect Park across the street. When you looked up it looked like it was snowing thousands of feet over my head. The sky was filled with sheets of paper, ash and insulation. It slowly fluttered down onto the grass of the park over the next few hours. Letters and memo’s from law firms and brokerages, little sticky notes and zeroxes.

The cloud of smoke was drawn by the wind over our neighbor hood. For three or four days it smelled like burning plastic everywhere. Everything felt empty.
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(c) 2001 Racerat

Nothing, Nothing
Left to die for
Nothing, Nothing
Good to try for

Ashes, ashes falling down

I smell God
I smell God

Building, Building
Make it higher
Building, Building
Funeral pyre

Glass is, glass is falling down
Glass and ashes on the ground

I smell God
I smell God

Something, Something
Else to die for
Someone, Someone
Else to cry for

Ashes, ashes on the ground

I smell God
I smell God
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Uploaded: Feb 03, 2007 - 09:17:23 PM
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8piscean8 said 4584 days ago (February 3rd, 2007)
I am sort of lost for words on this one. I can picture a snowfall of debri gliding down. This is quite peaceful feeling but sadful at the same time. Out of all your work I like this one the best. I like the musical stylings like the violin. The production is really nice. I really like the verse: building, building, make it higher, building, building, funeral pyre. Very moving. Thanks for recording and sharing this one.
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bud said 4584 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
Phillip - I share so much of this
experience with you. my wife and I took our kids to the playground at 3rd street in the park and sat with other stunned parents as the kids played and the "snow" fell. The ash covered our patio table - and we waited for the rain to wash it away. Thanks for this beautiful and sensitive portrait of a time I'll never forget. Your work here is obviously guided by grace.
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timothy devine said 4584 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
I've been thinking about that day lately
I Reorded an instumental justs minutes after the second tower fell.Haven been able o listen to it too much. I think it was like an escape for me to hide in my head phones. Your tune has a Very real feel of sadness. I Love the strings. And your voice makes me want to cry.

I was on the NJ turnpike trying to get to Queens, when i looked over to see the skyline i grew up with, the mightiest city in the world was under attack. I watched the second plane enter the sky and an 18 wheeler cut my vision. The second hit took place and now i thank god i didn't see it happen.
I then fed the recue workers for months with the salvation army.
Enough about me. I think your song will stir a lot of emotion.
It is good you waited to ink it. The pain is a little easier to deal with.

funny to say, i think we need to go back to remember. We all seam to forget far to fast. Not so many flags on cars these days.
we need to remember and you tune most definetly brings me back to that day.
gotta go cry...I smell God...WHAT A LINE
Thank you!
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craft said 4584 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
very emotive song
I think the vocals are too low in the mix... As I said before this song is caarried of emotion and passion!!! Well done!!! You are a great musician...
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said 4584 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
A very pretty dirge, Floyd-y in those vocals with a strangely unpredictable cello to keep things interesting. I enjoyed this.
Vic Holman said 4583 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
really nice tune
the overall vibe has a nice lennon quality to it. nicely structured and the feel is great. i do agree you vocalls need to come up without the lyrics printed i might not of gotten it all. besides your singing sounded mighty fine
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j2morrow said 4583 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
Wow, Philip,
This is powerful stuff. The music and words are so understated that they somehow reflect even more powerfully on the darkness of that day. One of the best things I've heard here in quite a while. Glad you finally thought to share it here at MacJams. Thanks.
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Ed Hannifin said 4583 days ago (February 4th, 2007)
This comes from a deep place...
...and goes straight to a deep place in the listener...

A song whose subject involves death, but is so full of life and the human spirit...

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legato said 4582 days ago (February 5th, 2007)
i lie in sadness while listening
thanks for this piece. being on the west coast i could hardly feel the tragedy until afterwards after the shock subsided. I can only imagine the sadness in your song from being there.

nice one
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mikkinylund said 4581 days ago (February 6th, 2007)
This is very emotional, as was that day to all of us. This is such a great tribute not only to that event, but to the human kind. I wish the vocal where a little bit higher mixed as well, you're voice is very good on this song, bring it up. Nice performance, great guitar licks, nicely mixed. /Peace/ Mikki
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Leon said 4579 days ago (February 8th, 2007)
This is why I didn't watch the movie... it hurts too much
This is poignant and mournful, Phillip... very depressing and very much in keeping with the theme of the event that you sing about. With my earphones on, I kinda struggle a bit to hear your voice in the first verse and for some parts of the song. Your voice is very emotional, and it probably needs to be amplified a bit. It stands well on its own, but to highlight the emotional drama, maybe a little harmony in a few parts will be fitting, I love the message of this song, can almost bring anyone close to tears, and really dig the understated sentimentality that you delivered it with. gotta listen to your other songs and i will pick my fav. Great job, Phillip!
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jiguma said 4579 days ago (February 9th, 2007)
Lovely song
Apart from the clear emotional strength of the lyrics - how on earth did you manage to sing "funeral pyre" without bursting into tears??? - the music has such a sad feel to it as well.

On a strictly musical side, the sheer volume of this track really astounds me - it would be good to get a few clues on how you do it sometime.

What can I say - a really beautiful, strong yet vulnerable song.

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said 4551 days ago (March 9th, 2007)
What can I say
But I should have listened to this sooner, This is put together with such emotion. I left to move out of Brooklyn One week before 911. My mother in law and brother in law told me that Bay parkway was covered in ash. This is a song that the world should hear!
lavalamp said 4460 days ago (June 8th, 2007)
Thanks for recommending your "Nothing". Very touching. Did not expect that. That was a very sad day and sorry that you and everyone had to go through that. You are a very good songwriter. By the way I also origianlly from SF.
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racerat said 4459 days ago (June 8th, 2007)
LL in SF
Cool, I love SF and am planning on being here for a while. Thanks for coming by and listening.

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echoroom said 4354 days ago (September 22nd, 2007)
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Fuckin' hell, this is beautiful, a really lovely tender song. if we're gonna keep working together, we gotta get you on more vocal duties (i'll shake the tambourine), 'cause you have a fantastic voice.

Wonderful production... but no shocker there.

The 'I smell god' line is a corker, Philip.

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racerat said 4353 days ago (September 22nd, 2007)
Thanks for takin' a tour though my old catalogue! It's funny, I was on the site and I was just about to do the same to yours, when I saw the "new" comments on Nothing. Thanks for the kind words about my voice. I try, and sometimes it works, and then sometimes it's like pulling freakin' teeth and nails on a blackboard if you get my drift. This song is one of my personal favorites though. That day the world just felt so empty.

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FGarofalo said 4334 days ago (October 11th, 2007)
of my favs so far. Very well recorded and produced. I really got into the
vocals. I got the news on a phone message " there are planes flyin into buildings in New York turn on the TV" I couldn't believe my eyes.
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