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A little song (now reposting, since I grabbed the wrong file last time) that I wrote after the Capitol Hill shootings. The shooter was your typical maladjusted loner, not unlike myself. But where he turned one direction, I went the other. Evil is banal; it's in all of us in some form, and we can only hope we can keep it contained.
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I know I shouldn’t be here
I feel so out of place
Everyone seems so happy
And I think I lost the race
It goes back to my school days
And the things they said to me
I need to put it past me but
My past won’t let me be

It needs to end right now
It’s coming out right now
I’m giving in right now
This is how I deal

Why can’t I cope with you
You turned your back on me
I fight my lonely battles on
A field no one else can see
Now I feel the gun in my hand like
A long-forgotten friend
I’m going to turn the tables
And make this torment end
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Uploaded: Sep 04, 2007 - 08:10:09 PM
Last Updated: Sep 05, 2007 - 12:05:29 PM Last Played: Jun 01, 2019 - 02:33:08 PM
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Ovation Celebrity electro-acoustic
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echoroom said 4305 days ago (September 5th, 2007)
Sweet sadness
Chris - this is a bloody great track - your voice sounds excellent, and the vox are nice and upfront. Great vocal melodies - the verse and chorus are realy strong and memorable - this has a real classic feel to it. Such a sweet strong coupled with the lyric just blows me away - 'this is how I deal' is a cracking line.

Love this - don't leave it so long between posting next time, man!

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SickTransit said 4305 days ago (September 5th, 2007)
Thanks Steve
You won't have too long to wait. Another one is almost ready to go.
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Mcboy said 4304 days ago (September 6th, 2007)
crafted and emotive song.....love the vocal guitar duet....nice tone on the strat.....thanks for sharing....
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guitapick said 4304 days ago (September 6th, 2007)
Fine, powerful poetry...
...set to a deceptively sweet musical backdrop. Very well conceived, played, sung, and produced.

I agree with the end of your description...
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said 4303 days ago (September 6th, 2007)
i like it
its a sweet balad nixed in saddness anger and hope1 many things going on in the lyrics nice mix and playing good song good singing enjoyed it much
jiguma said 4303 days ago (September 6th, 2007)
Good song Chris, ..
.. and very nicely produced. Really like your voice (and the words), and the guitars sound just right for the song. I'm having a little trouble hearing the bass (may be my phones, so don't take this too seriously), and maybe that needs mixing up a little louder (although it seemed louder in the instrumental and from there on). Are those drum loops or midi? Just a thought, but sliding them a few clicks (at full magnification) to the left (moving them a tad in front of the beat) might add a little extra punch to the song.
Good post!
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SickTransit said 4302 days ago (September 7th, 2007)
Thanks for the comments and the advice. Those are midi loops that I've customized and poked at in GB3's loop editor so it's my loop and not just the preset. I may have mixed the bass low because it's not a real bass but the Ozonic, and I'm not entirely confident it doesn't sound like a keyboard...
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